Tuesday

Tuesday

Another day passes where i am under the spell of my Mistress, after some guidance from my mistress last night i have found doing my edges easier today and did not take as long so fitted easier into my day at work, although the intensity was much more being in a shorter period of time. I have completed 60 edges so far and have a further 20 to complete before heading to bed this evening.
 
I normally only wear my panties at work but had quiz night straight after work so ended up going in my panties, knowing that i was out and about with work colleagues with panties under my trousers constantly made me think of my Mistress
 
I have this eveining again tried putting pegs on various parts of my body and left them on for about 15 minutes, taking them off was by far the worst part, with intense feeling as they came off and very sensitive skin for a while after.
 
I have also continued when edging at home tying up my balls as the picture in Mistresses profile, i still have a lot of work to do in the area both in improving my tie and the stretch i can achieve but i will keep practising each night

  
davina

Weekend update

I completed my trust exercise and Mistress Susan was very understanding of my confession which i am forever grateful





The weekend


I was instructed by Mistress to focus on my wife this passed weekend and to make her life as easy as possible and to try and fulfil her everyneed and serve her like i would my mistress.





Saturday


All during today i made sure my wife had everything she needed, i was up early to feed/change/dress our daughter and did all the chores round the house during the morning. This afternoon we visited my grandad for his 91st birthday, i drove there and back which allowed my wife to have a glass of wine.


Sunday


I have struggled a little today but remained focused on my task. previously my wife and i took turns at the early start on a Sunday but last wek and again this week i got up to look after our daughter to allow my wife to have a long lie. As most of the housework was done yesterday, in the morning i got round to doing a couple of DIY tasks that i had been putting off that my wife had been nagging me to do for ages, after finishing those she said she was pleased that i was starting to listen to her and getting things done. After lunch we headed to Edinburgh to see a friend, i drove which allowed my wife to have a little nap on the way down and i also drove back so she could just chill out.


Monday/Tuesday


I have been continuing my routine lipbalm, sitting cross legged and sitting to pee. I stopped at Tesco this morning and bought a packet of girls panties to add to my collection and i wore a pair of these new panties at work today instead of my white panties



I am struggling with my regime of edges, with the problem being fitting them all in my day, they are consuming a lot of my thoughts and time and i feel like i am hard for a large part of the day and i am already extremely frustrated.

New feelings

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Tuesday

I have been continuing my daily tasks as previously instructed by Mistress Susan, Although on holiday and not at work, i managed to wear female panties for most of the day including when at university class this afternoon. I completed my edges this evening with my balls tied as instructed, i think i did a better tie tonight with slightly more stretching than before, the balance of uncomfortable feeling with the increase sensitivty is quite interesting when performing my edges to the gay porn which is now thourghly pervading my thoughts. I have never though of myself as bi curious but the more i am made to watch the porn the more i am questioning it.


Mistress asked yesterday during the makeup task whether i feltdissappointed i didn't have time to do my makeup properly of if i enjoyed the feeling that i might get caught. In reply i said that it was abit of both, i wanted to do better and show to mistress that i can learn to do my makeup properly but the rush knowing that i was doing this with a risk of being caught and being humiliated was much bigger than i expected and i enjoyed that feeling


davina

Monday - tied balls

I was meant to update my journal yesterday evening but had some wifi issues which thankfully have been resolved.

Yesterday was my 1st day off work and i was expecting a new task to be set but it didn't arrive ( i now know my Mistress has been unwell and i hope she is feeling much better soon) so i focussed again on my regular tasks. I was not looking forward to completing my edges at night as i had been set additional task to bind my balls like the picture in her profile. I was able to get away and buy the required cord and while in store also purchased the other items i had been instructed to which was some clothes pegs.

I realised while I was out I was nearly out of lip balm so I popped into my local store and bought one to make sure I am never without it.

Later during the evening I was able to prepare to do my edges, I took out the cord and tried to bind my balls as instructed by Mistress, I think I did not too bad a job ( I emailed a picture to Mistress) although I have feedback from my Mistress with some constructive criticism and I will be working hard to improve,. I have also tried placing some pegs on various parts of my body, just one or two to start with and it is amazing how much it feels different between the different areas, how much flesh you put into the viscous little teeth. Also I only left them on for 10 minutes but the pain when they are removed, when the blood rushes back is quite intense.

While edging with your balls bound,  I felt it was much more intense and harder to know when to stop, the balls and cock became much more sensitive to touch  and in my mind the level of frustration was much higher.

davina

The Weekend

As instructed by Mistress I focus all my attention on my wife over the weekend for the 2nd weekend in a row. I am sure she is curious as to why there has been this sudden shift but she has not really asked why and is enjoying the benefits. On Saturday I did all the housework, including the bathrooms and a round of ironing, we went out to see friends in the afternoon and i ensured that i bought all the food and drinks and fetched and carried so she could just chill and chat with our friends. We had a quiet night watching TV and i offered to give her a foot massage which she happily accepted. This then led further into some light foreplay and kissing. I concentrated on ensuring i was pleasing my wife 1st and not thinking about the need for my pleasure. We headed upstairs where there was some more foreplay with her vibrator before we made love. Later before bed i offered to clean her vibrator and as instructed during my session with Mistress Susan i cleaned the vibrator with my tongue.


I then asked my wife if it was ok for me to stay up and watch match of the day, she said she was happy for me to do that as she could then chill out with the bed to herself.


However instead of watching match of the day i took the decision to complete Mistress Susan’s task which i was given for not listening properly, i was to make up my face three times and take a picture after each time to practice my makeup skills. Earlier in the day i had managed to borrow my wife’s eye shadow as one of the stipulations was to use three different eye shadows as proof i had done my makeup three times.


I did manage to do my makeup three times but i need a lot more practice, also i was petrified that my wife could have come down at any moment and caught me in the act. After completing and cleaning my face i then headed to bed.


On Sunday we had a day out where we had fun driving 4x4, this had been a birthday present from my wife but when we arrived i offered to let her do 50% of the driving experience, she was ecstatic and we both loved every moment. Once home the rest of Sunday i made sure i made her cups of tea, organised and tided up after dinner and made sure she had a calm and relaxing evening


Mistress Susan has also given me a couple of updates to my eding task which i must start adding in from tonight ( i must purchase a couple of things 1st) and i now await some tasks which she is planning for me to complete during my holiday week

Friday-

Another day has passed under the control of my Mistress, Friday is quite a diificult day as i have a standing instruction from my mistress that over Saturday and Sunday I must focus my full attention and efforts towards my wife, to treat her as i would treat my mistress, to let her want for nothing, give her the control without her knowing it. the 1st weekend i was set this task i failed and looked at my Mistresses webpage and i was punished for this. This is now the second weekend approaching and i am determined not to fail my mistress again.  So This blog will not be updated again until monday unless directly instructed by my Mistress.

I have continued today with the standing instructions from my mistress while await new tasks, the edges at work again were difficult to fit, being my last day before a week off, work was understandibly very bust but i was determined not to let down my Mistress.  Between  breaks and lunchtime, i was able to complete my 40 edges, everyday i acheieve this a great sense of happiness that i will be pleasing my mistress but also one of deep frustration a further deeper fall into submissiveness, hoping that my mistress will allow me to cum soon. 

Since 1st being instructed by my mistress to shave my pubic area, i have now twice reshaved to my myslef clean shaven for to reasons, the 1st was a subconcsious decison that my mistress instructed me orginally to shave and i assume that i must keep clean shaven and the 2nd more practical reason is as it starts to grow back in it is quite uncomfortable.

As i write this there is a vidoe of gay porn of two young men making out and playing with themselves,  as i complete my 20edges at home. i don't know how long i will be doing thsi for but these images are starting to filter deep into my head that i am sure i am starting to have dreams, this may be because of the edging and my brain is starting to link the two who knows

sissy davina signing off until monday